Between us

I always thought I am there, somewhere between writing & photography, but I come to realize that they are both connected somehow. It’s been a while since I wrote anything, pretty much the same time since I last touched my camera and it’s probably because I’m in my down phase, stuck in that vicious circle of personal fears…

I’m always between two things but I never seem to accomplish much, for I either lose interest, get bored or feel too weak to stand up for the challenge no matter how simple it may seem, and I end up feeling helpless. So many things are hanging now, driving, diet, traveling, masters degree and I don’t even want to start with relationships.I’m a total wreck of a huge mess. I’m tired and disgusted of my own situation and the hardest part of all this, is that I know everything said to make others feel better, I’m a master in that domain. No trick will work with me.

I want out!