I’ve always considered ” La Maison du Café” a place where the funniest incidents can occur.Today it felt so gloomy it was almost going to rain from the ambiance I was in.
I was asked to organize an event, a gathering for the girls of Rawda 99, and I did.The girls that I liked, the ones I’m still in contact with refused to come..Each and everyone of them gave me a reason a 10 year old child won’t buy. They didn’t want to be with the girls that we last had contact with 10 years ago.I was stuck in this meeting, but I forced one of them to come. I didn’t want to be there alone and I also didn’t want to ditch the meeting because I wanted them to know that they can’t intimidate me like they used to back in the old days. I was a nobody in the school days, everyone wanted to be around me for the only reason that is I’m a good listener. The gang of the popular girls would come to me and start gossiping on the others, the ones they’re supposed to be best friends with. I never defended any party, they simply talked because they felt it was a major ingredient of making them important and also because they would get even when someone would gossip back. I couldn’t care less. I just wanted to stay safe. And this feeling grew with me, I discovered that just today, I still don’t feel comfortable around them.
I thought 10 years would change ppl, like I did. I’m proud of the improvement I made of myself. From being a nobody to being heard whenever I speak. But this afternoon I discovered that some ppl are like stone, they never change. Maybe I haven’t changed much either, considering the fact that I still felt uncomfortable with them. Maybe the changes I made about myself or what life has made of me are only visible to me, but then again, no… I knew exactly what happened. They wanted to maintain the image they used to have although it’s a bit shaky now, while I wanted to display the new version of me. I met Ms.”I’m rich and I got richer because I married a richer guy”, Ms. “I brought my fiancee with me and he’s sitting on the table behind me smsing me evey two minutes because he can’t be away from me”, Ms. ” I’m too good to live in this shitty country and I’m here on vacation that I can’t wait to go back to UAE”, Ms.” I had my eyes lazeced and got rid of the thick glasses I used to wear, lost the unibrow, lost 1/2 of my weight and look how pretty I am”….And there was me, just Ms.”ymn” with Ms.”Ymn forced me to come” that didn’t belong.
It’s not about the places you go to, it’s about the people u go with, every time u go somewhere, u make new memories…